Hey Chubs, you know there's calorie free soda right?

   

   That's right look at it . . . LOOK AT IT! How has America come to this? Fast food is cheaper right? Not if you're eating thirteen burgers in one sitting. The cost of living while this obese cost EVEN MORE than if you ate something like vegetables. I understand that for some people it is genetic, but for the other 95% of you, it's weakness and laziness. I'm not asking for you to be a star athlete, but lose enough so you don't get diabetes.

   I saw a hefty guy in one of my classes today drink SEVERAL sodas. You really couldn't get diet? Water blows, I know I hate it too. Although, I know how good it is for me so I force it down my gullet. I used to hate diet soda, but once I realized how much sugar is in regular soda, I had to stop. That's almost like eating diabetes (and smoking is inhaling cancer). If all of these extremely overweight people put a little more effort into not eating as much and eating better, health insurance would probably go down for the rest of us. Same goes for you smokers. Knock it off, it's not helping you at all. It's only costing you more money daily (cigarettes itself) and more money in the future (health care, thanks you jerk). I know what I say is harsh, but it's what I think and it makes me angry. People should not be weighing 600 pounds. You're 20 pounds overweight, that's fine and not terribly unhealthy (wouldn't hurt to not be though). This goes to the one's who are 100 pounds overweight. I'm sure no one ever thought that fat people could affect them, but 1/3 of America is obese. That says something and eating less and working out would only better your life. You'd be more healthy and save yourself money.

My Miserable Life

   Oh, you thought I was going to complain about how awful my life was? Well get ready to be kind of disappointed. Since I'm stuck in my mind all day with really no one to talk to, I try to find ways to better myself. (Spoiler Alert: I'm actually just trying to find ways to justify my thoughts). I wish I didn't think the way I do, so I search online for people with similar stories and lives. I wonder about my actions and thoughts. Am I really being so ridiculous? Half the time I admit, I am being ridiculous.

   After so many months of looking over the disgusting amount of issues I shouldn't be having daily, I came across a site www.mymiserablelife.com. We watch sad movies and always know that the stories are fictional and don't really happen often. However, those depressing stories are real and out there. Should I be reading such a site because it encourages my negative behavior? I don't think so because I read these stories and realize I don't have it so bad, but have come across many similarities that make my heart begin a series of outstanding beats. What if this happens to me? Thanks mom, you've brought me up well to get nervous and worry about everything. When you're feeling down about something that isn't worth it, check this site out and be appreciative of what you have.

High on Charlie Sheen

 

 Charlie Sheen made it pretty clear with his statement "I'm on a drug. It's called Charlie Sheen." I'm not exactly sure of the meaning of this reference. I have three explanations. One, he is poking fun at the media and this publicity 'disaster' (He's getting great ratings right now so yes, disaster will stay in quotes). Second, he's high on himself because he thinks he is more awesome than everyone else and doesn't care what you think. Third, this is all a publicity stunt to gain ratings. This is how the world works, there really is no such thing as bad publicity. What makes someone a star? Their name known to the most people possible.

   Okay, so everyone thinks he is crazy and hates him and CBS is going to kick him off the show. Riddle me this, do you really think people will stop watching the show if they keep this insane, bi-polar, drugged up mess? I don't think so. Like I mentioned before, ratings. I personally think MORE people will watch the show. I don't believe anyone has the common sense and standards of morality to think 'Well I'm not going to support his shenanigans'. People are dumb. Look at Jersey Shore, The Real World, Real Housewives of insertrandomlocationhere. Can you really call these shows quality TV? It's all drama, drama, drama. We love to see other people unhappy to make us think that our lives aren't so bad. I do partake in watching some of these shows, but pretty much have to because my girlfriend loves that garbage (not pronounced gahbage even though I'm from Jersey). I don't say anything because I don't care that much and just laugh to myself about these people. Once the show is over and they have millions of dollars, they'll know what sadness really means. They'll run out of things to buy and resort to drugs to 'get more out of life'. Only those who have worked hard for their money gain a sense of purpose and worth. I have to wonder with Sheen in this state, is he happy? Or is he losing his mind and putting up that macho front to retain his sense of masculinity? You're the man, Sheen. I'm enjoying your breakdown.

I'd rather laugh than learn

   As negative and depressing as I am, my favorite form of entertainment is comedy. When I see my good friend Mike his TV is usually set to documentaries, the news or historical programs. Very rarely will I find this stuff interesting. The only sort of informative programs I can enjoy are obscure documentaries (anyone see My Strange Addiction?). I try to laugh as much as I can and education is not funny. I only interest myself in learning so I can get a good job.

   My dad rags on Howard stern and says how he can listen to it (because its all his friend listens to) but mostly he's disgusted by it. I can actually agree with him. Sometimes the raunchy jokes get old. A little variety wouldn't kill anyone. I like a lot of sit com's. A few favorites are Seinfeld, the king of queens, how I met your mother, community, outsourced, the league, its always sunny in Philadelphia and a bunch of others. The same goes for movies and now with Pandora on my phone I'm able to listen to comedians instead of music. People tell me to not take things so seriously and I think this is at least a start. Instead of feeding my serious behavior with depressing music, I've replaced it with stand up comedians. However, because if my daily commute, I've heard the same bits 30 times. Luckily, my favorite comedian Daniel Tosh has come out with a new album. Ill definitely be picking that up soon.

   I think the pressure of school and education has sucked out any chances of enjoying learning. What's wrong with that anyway? It makes me happy so why should I care if other people think my taste is dull? I think it's because most of the people I know are usually talking about the latest on Nat Geo while I'm reminiscing over the latest Community episode. Oh well, don't judge me.
  

Being a future guest for intervention is not cool

   I overheard a conversation today between a few young adults. They were talking about how much alcohol they consumed at once. I really never understood the concept of 'holding your liquor'. Hm, you're trying to get as messed up as possible, but antagonize others who get there before you. Should you be proud of the damage of your liver being so severe that you can down a twelve pack in an hour? I hope you enjoy the shortened life span you've gained by being a so called 'man.'

   I personally hope I don't have to drink as much to get wasted. Shouldn't everyone else envy me? I'm having more fun than you in a shorter time. Don't be proud that you drink six beers a day and don't feel anything, its only going to get worse. Ill let Intervention know you'll be on there in about ten years. You drunk.

I Blame My Ex

  

As I analyze my life every second of th day I compare it to other people I know. I compare it to what normal people do and how they find happiness and comfort in life. My friends find a thrill in a night out on the town drinking in overcrowded clubs, or bars making fools of themselves. I used to enjoy that, but for some reason love became my number one priority.

   I remember during high school I would HAVE to be out drinking on weekend nights, or my free time was wasted. For some reason it made me feel cool, because that was the standard. I could enjoy the company of my friends, but also had an instinct and want in the back of my head to meet a girl. If I proved unsuccessful (which was the case 99.99% of the time) I was ok with it. I was always the type to want a girlfriend. I enjoy the attention and company, but also enjoyed time by myself and with my friends. That slowly dissolved after my girlfriend during my senior year of high school.

  Every girlfriend I had until that point was normal. The only thoughts in their minds were studying, sports, friends and partying. Things would be great and intimate in the beginning, but would normalize as most relationships do. But, this one girl changed all of that. She was completely different, but I guess I was too. I began to interest myself in the type of music known as 'emo'. I really hate saying that. I was in a band, wrote poetry, was full of emotion so it only made sense that I found a girl of similar taste. And so she showed herself. We began our relationship and were instantly head over heels for each other. I remember our first night alone and she wrote me a letter. I was baffled. Really? A Letter? I didn't really get it. Inside was a confession of this liking she had for me. She said she was counting down the days until she could see me again. I was uncomfortable at first, but soon found myself doing the same. This created such a connection that time barely had an effect on our emotions. It made me feel secure, like she loved me and didn't care about anyone else. It was just like the movies. At that point, I didn't care about drinking, or friends, I just wanted her. If I could have her that was all I needed. I was able to just open myself up without any negative judgement. It was the greatest thing in the world.

   As they say, all things must come to an end. We dated for a year and a half thinking that we would get married eventually. (She did call two years later drunk on her birthday to see if we were still getting married). She was too stubborn, manipulative, controlling, started doing coke, I couldn't take it. She'd say that I wasn't her father. So, I broke up with her and ignored every single text and phone call from her for a month. I wasn't really hurt at all, I was ok. In fact, I couldn't wait to find someone else. I'm not the type to just hit it and quit, I think it's degrading to the true act. Although, it took me three years to start a real relationship. Things are really not going great because I'm insane. I want that connection I had with my ex, I want the affection and compassion, but the girl I'm with now it . . . normal. Coincidentally, I feel like she's a little different, but in the way where she doesn't like to be touched, doesn't like affection, isn't romantic. None of those things. She likes that I'M affectionate though, which I don't like. I feel denied, I feel like a guy chasing after a girl that wants nothing to do with him. Resent and anger have quickly become my friends. When we go out, she becomes this social butterfly flirting with all of her guy friends completely ignoring me. Eventually I would get upset and flip out at the end of the night. She would tell me to get over it. I think since the first time she has said that line, I've just held this grudge. Things aren't the same between us and I wonder what I should do in this boring, typical, unromantic, one sided, emotionless relationship.

Be More Vague College Essay

   I had to write an essay for my college of choice recently. I always heard about difficult topics wondering what they could possibly be about. My first impression was that it was very specific leaving the writer without much to say. That might be true, but I encountered an opposing problem. The topic was way too basic. They asked why I chose their school and what it will bring me. Uh, what other reason does anyone go to college for besides partying, graduating and getting a good job? Everyone wants to make money, that's why they go to college. In fact, we HAVE to go to college. If not we will spend our worthless eternity praying for a manager's position at the local Mcdonald's.

   Any other reasons I could come up with seemed just as shallow. Why am I choosing to go to NJIT? Because it's better than a community college and I didn't get into Rutgers (actually that decision is still pending). You are also the closest school to me, cheapest and one of the few that had my major without requiring me to take two semesters of a second language. I should have mentioned to them that I'm lazy. I really don't know what they're looking for. How many people are going to tell them that it was their lifelong dream to be an engineer and they don't care about making money as long as they can do that. LIARS!

   I ended actually writing a pretty damn good essay. I mean so far NJIT did accept me and from what I hear it's a good school. Too bad it's in Newark and across the street from the ghetto. How ironic would it be that I start to go there and get killed and robbed by a degenerate who didn't go to college? Maybe then I'll be put out of my misery. Take notes colleges, make the essay topics a little bit more specific and realistic. No one is choosing your school because it was their lifelong dream. There are hundreds of schools, you are not special. Your students were probably just rejected from their real dream schools.